My Journey Continues

Many times, we attempt to play God in our own lives. We attempt to play God by trying to control everything for our own selfish reasons. I've done it, numerous times, and let me tell you, it wasn't easy to let go of what I thought was good control of my own life. Thing is, I never had control.... in fact, I was giving ALL my control away to men, and friends, that didn't have a real clue as to what was best for me. I wasn't even attempting to be the center of my own universe. I was more concerned about being the center of other's lives because of fear of abandonment, fear of not being loved, not being accepted. When all along, these people had no real interest in me personally. I tried to control my image, I cared so much about what other people thought of me. I didn't want anyone to know what I really was like, when in fact, I was and am, a very beautiful soul. I actually believed that their view of who I should be, was more important. When in fact, I now know and see what a wonderful person I am. I'm not about to share ALL my hurts, habits and hangups here, in this platform. We play games, we wear masks, we pretend and we fake it. We want people to see certain sides of us while we hide other's. We deny our weakness and we deny our feelings. Why are we afraid to tell people, who we really are? Answer, "If I tell you who I really am and you don't like me, I'm in trouble - because then... I'm all I got." You see, those four little words... have always scared me. The thought of being alone was petrifying!!! The real pain comes when we realize, in our quieter moments, that no matter how hard we try, we're not in control. That realization can and IS very scary. I have been very blessed these last three years... I have learned that God forgave me for ALL my past, a very long time ago. Everything... things I had no control of and things I should have had "some" control. I've been learning to forgive myself for everything and most importantly, make my amends to everyone and most importantly, myself. I've been learning to live WITH JUST myself. For those who have been a part of my journey these last three and a half years... Thank you! But most importantly... Thank you Lord for Your Love and Grace! No anger, no hatred AND no fear. It hasn't been easy, but ... it's been more peaceful for my heart and soul. This lady is still learning to be accepting of herself and to not need anyone in her life to make her feel like she's important. I already am, I have been in His eyes this WHOLE time.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not to your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He shall direct your path. Proverbs 3:5-6

Family Strength Quotes And Short Bible Verses About Family

“She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come.” Proverbs 31:25 “I can do all things through him who strengthens me.” – Philippians 4:13 “Honor your father and mother, and love your neighbor as yourself.” – Matthew 19:19 “Children’s children are a crown to the aged, and parents are the pride of their children.” – Proverbs 17:6 “My son, if your heart is wise, then my heart will be glad indeed.” – Proverbs 23:15 “Therefore what God has joined together, let no one separate.” –Mark 10:9

Healing the Soul of a Woman by Joyce Meyer

"Can a woman who has been deeply hurt by life's circumstances be healed, heart and soul? If she has been wounded by a man she loved and trusted, can she love and trust again? As a woman who endured years of abuse, abandonment, and betrayal by those closest to her, Joyce meyer can answer with a resounding "Yes!" 

Healing the Soul of a Woman

Equip Me Lord

With feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the Gospel of peace**. May I reflect the Gospel in my words and actions, that through me, with my every encounter, others may be drawn one step closer to You. 

Ephesians 6:15

Genuine and False

The kingdom of heaven is like a man who sowed good seed in his field; but while men slept, his enemy came and sowed tares among the wheat and went his way. But when the grain had sprouted and produced a crop, then the tares also appeared. So the servants of the owner came and said to him, "Sir, did you now sow good seed in your field? How then does it have tares?" He said to them, "An enemy has done this." The servants said to him, "Do you want us then to go and gather them up?" But he said, "No, lest while you gather up the tares you also uproot the wheat with them. Let both grow together until the harvest, and at the time of harvest I will say to the reapers, "First gather together the tares and bind them in bundles to burn them, but gather the wheat into my barn." 

Here is the church--true and false converts sitting alongside one another until the fearsom Day of Judgment arrives when God will sort out the genuine from the false. It shold make us tremble at such a thought. Fear is a friend if it brings us in genuine repentance to the foot of the cross: "By the fear of the Lord men depart from evil" (Proverbs 16:6) 

Soul Search 

Do I have a healthy fear of God? How will this be evidenced when I am tempted to sin? 

Prayer: 

Father, make me wise with my eyes. 

Faith during these difficult times

Where to even start...

Let's start with my Faith...  it's always been what has carried me in life. Through all my trials and tribulations, through good times and through dark times. None the Less My Faith Is Strong! Even through this Pandemic.

I am a Technical Analyst at a Hospital, I am considered "Essential", which by all means, I consider myself blessed and grateful...  I'm finding that this "Stay At Home" Sheltering and staying away from my children and grandchildren are starting to wear on me...  I found myself praying over the anxiety that I am starting to feel from not being around family, worried for all my children and their personal health and my grandchildren's health. Family is everything to me...  So, I am trying to focus on our loving God and pray for peace of mind as He always tells us he is ready to give us, if we only focus on Him.

There are so many families that have lost so much more than I, family members, jobs, income, and normalcy of their lives. I will focus on praying for all affected by this pandemic.

Pray for grieving families who have lost loved ones to the corona virus. Even as their hearts are breaking, we pray they would know your nearness and comfort. We pray that you compassion, Lord, would be felt through the Holy Spirit's ministry and through the ministry of friends and neighbors who come around them. We pray against despair; we pray new mercies every morning.

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

~ Philippians 4:6-7

 

Stay safe 

Love Others Like You Love Yourself

 

You do well when you complete the Royal Rule of the Scriptures: 

"Love others as you love yourself." 

James 2:8 

We all know how to love and dote on ourselves. But if we want to fulfill God's grand plan for our lives, we need to follow the Royal Rule and consider the needs of others. We need to give generously (not just when we deem someone worthy). We need to forgive (even when we were clearly wronged). We need to avoid gossip and slander (speaking kindly even to the mean-spirited). So who needs your love today?